the emptiness.

it is clear what most of us are doing: traveling from one place to another, searching for lasting happiness. there's an element of emptiness that we keep trying to assuage. we want to find something that feels good and makes sense, something solid that we can use as a permanent reference point. wisdom might tell us that we're seeking something we wont ever find, yet part of the reason we keep looking is that we've never quite been satisfied....we cant think beyond finding the missing piece... -sakyon mipham

...this is why i fought. the satiation of finding what was waiting to be found. this is what drives me. this is what was my catalyst to turn my every thought, moral, and boundary on its ear to reach for an unmatchable, magnanimous love. it was not some evil inside of me.