a low.

i am beside myself with grief. i cannot sleep. i dont know if i can pull myself together....not for work much less for life.

i literally feel as if someone is stepping on my throat.

what happened to me? what did i do along the path of life to deserve to be treated so disposable. you can only hear someone tell you how unimportant you are so many times before believing it...but even when you believe it - it still feels like swallowing a knife.

icannotdothis.

I CANT DO IT!

you knew you would break me, you asshole. and you still took, took, took.

you ruined my life.
you ruined me.

evil.