i've decided to take a 3-week hiatus from my life. i packed up my car and headed west. upon my departure, a friend encouraged me to 'find my tears of joy'. i did just that, in the smallest of ways:
driving from cimarron to taos, new mexico - there was a fleeting moment where i looked around as my car swiftly tackled the curving roads...and all i could see were mountains and fields. all i could hear was the most perfect song that the radio could have granted me: kid cudi's pursuit of happiness. http://prettymuchamazing.com/music/kid-cudi-pursuit-of-happiness-ft-mgmt-ratatat
but i must emphasize - the moment has passed. and now i sit in this perfectly serene, quiet mountain town...and find myself more lonely than ever.
i feel forgotten and dismissed.
how do i sit with my 'burning charcoals' and not get burned?
how do i swallow pain and pride to find peace?
how do i accept defeat, rejection, loss and lies with grace?
how do i let go when i dont want to?
i wish someone out there had all the answers....
driving from cimarron to taos, new mexico - there was a fleeting moment where i looked around as my car swiftly tackled the curving roads...and all i could see were mountains and fields. all i could hear was the most perfect song that the radio could have granted me: kid cudi's pursuit of happiness. http://prettymuchamazing.com/music/kid-cudi-pursuit-of-happiness-ft-mgmt-ratatat
but i must emphasize - the moment has passed. and now i sit in this perfectly serene, quiet mountain town...and find myself more lonely than ever.
i feel forgotten and dismissed.
how do i sit with my 'burning charcoals' and not get burned?
how do i swallow pain and pride to find peace?
how do i accept defeat, rejection, loss and lies with grace?
how do i let go when i dont want to?
i wish someone out there had all the answers....
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